‘There are triggers!’ Brenda Edwards discusses grieving the loss of son Jamal as she explains how she allows herself to cry and picks herself back up
- Brenda’s son Jamal passed away in February after suffering a cardiac arrest
Music mogul Jamal Edwards died in February, aged just 31, following a ‘sudden heart attack’ at the Acton home he shared with his mother after DJing the night before.
And on Wednesday, his mother Brenda Edwards discussed grieving the loss of her son as she explained how she allows herself to cry and then picks herself back up.
Grief: On Wednesday’s Lorraine, Brenda Edwards, 53, discussed grieving the loss of her son Jamal as she explained how she allows herself to cry and then picks herself back up
Talking about her recent return to Chicago the musical, Brenda admitted: ‘I was so nervous as I’m coming into the tour, whereas you’re usually coming in together.
‘It was a bit scary because I only had an hour to refresh, are the words still in there? The beauty of Chicago was everyone is so welcoming, maybe because of the storyline.’
The Loose Women panellist added: ‘Jamal came and watched me in Chicago a few times, and he was very, very supportive of my musical theatre career.’
Speaking about the recent loss of her son, she said: ‘I think for me it’s important for my mind to keep busy, because if you’re left with the silence then you’re left with lots of different thoughts.’
Mum and son: Jamal Edwards died in February, aged just 31, following a ‘sudden heart attack’ at the Acton home he shared with his mother (Pictured in November 2021)
Brenda also shared how talking to Prince Charles at a Prince’s Trust event helped to keep her moving forward, following Jamal’s death.
She said: ‘I met Prince Charles, it was wonderful. He expressed his condolences, he said ‘your son was amazing’.
‘And it made me really proud to hear that and know how many young people Jamal helped. It keeps me going.’
Lorraine told the singer: ‘It’s so good to see you and it feels like the old you is slowly coming back,’ to which Brenda admitted: ‘Every day I put one foot in front of the other.
‘There are triggers, but I don’t know what they are, they just happen and you’re got to allow yourself to grieve and to cry when I wanna cry and then I’ll pick myself back up.’
Real talk: Brenda admitted there are ‘triggers’ which she can’t explain, insisting: ‘They just happen,’ while also noting the importance of keeping busy
At the beginning of June, Brenda released that the cause of Jamal’s death had been determined as a cardiac arrhythmia caused by having taken recreational drugs.
Brenda said in a statement: ‘We have been so incredibly touched by the outpouring of love and support, and you are all helping us try and get through the unimaginable.
‘I have sadly learned that the cause of Jamal’s devastating passing was due to cardiac arrhythmia caused by having taken recreational drugs and I wanted to address this myself to everyone who loved, admired and respected my son’.
Brenda previously described her son’s untimely death as ‘sudden and unexpected’, explaining that he ‘went into a cardiac arrest and then he passed with me holding his hand.’
Back at work: ‘I think for me it’s important for my mind to keep busy, because if you’re left with the silence then you’re left with lots of different thoughts’ explained Brenda
Brenda spoke out as the inquest into his death opened in west London, which heard he ‘came home late one evening, after which he became increasingly agitated and suffered a cardiac arrest’. He died on February 20.
The hearing did not say what drugs Jamal had taken – although NHS guidance says cocaine, amphetamines such as speed, and ecstasy can all have adverse effects on the heart.
‘Since finding out I’ve been in a state of shock and I’m still trying to process it, but it’s so important that i do address it as no mother or any loved one should have to go through what Jamal’s sister Tanisha, and I have been through since he passed.
She said that drugs are ‘unpredictable’ and ‘Jamal is proof that this can happen to anyone.
‘I would do anything tp have my son back but this is not possible so if I can help save one life, then we will have achieved something. His passing has shown that any one bad decision on any one occasion can lead to devastating consequences’.
Statement: Brenda Edwards revealed the cause of her son’s death as an inquest opened
Brenda described her son as having had the ‘world at his fingertips – a zest for life and he was unwittingly taken away far too soon’.
‘Yet we have to come to terms with what has happened, and Jamal is proof that this can happen to anyone.’
She wrote: ‘These types of substances are extremely unpredictable, and we can only hope that this will encourage others to think wisely when faced with similar situations in the future.
‘His passing has shown that any one bad decision on any one occasion can lead to devastating consequences.
‘It’s so important that we help drive more conversation about the unpredictability of recreational drugs and the impact that they can have – how it takes just one bad reaction to destroy lives.
‘I would do anything to have my son back but that is just not possible so if I can help save one life, then we will have achieved something.’
The SBTV founder gained fame after setting up the new music platform in 2006, and was credited with helping to launch a string of UK music acts to stardom, including Ed Sheeran, Dave and Jessie J.
Fame: Jamal is famous for setting up the online media platform SBTV, which showcased emerging artists. He was awarded an MBE at Buckingham Palace in 2015