‘All I had to look forward to was death’: Kate Moss’ best pal DJ Fat Tony posts shocking photos from when he was in the grip of drug addiction as he celebrates 16 years sober
Kate Moss’ best friend, DJ Fat Tony, has posted shocking photos from when he was in the grip of a drug addiction as he celebrated 16 years sober on Tuesday.
The music star, 56, real name Tony Marnach, took to Instagram to share harrowing images from when he was in the throes of a crack cocaine addiction, revealing that he was homeless and had no teeth due to his habit.
He added that he posts the images each year as a ‘message of hope’ to anyone struggling and to remind people to never give up.
Then: Kate Moss’ best friend, DJ Fat Tony, has posted shocking photos from when he was in the grip of a drug addiction as he celebrated 16 years sober on Tuesday
Now: A clean Tony grins as he DJs at Diet Coke’s 40th birthday party in November, hosted by best friend Kate Moss (pictured together)
He wrote on Instagram: ‘This was me just over 16 years ago, I was dying from addiction.
‘I hated myself and life and all I had to look forward to was death. I was homeless and had no teeth.
‘Today I am celebrating 16 YEARS CLEAN AND SOBER and love life. I post these pictures every year as a message of hope to anyone struggling because when you think life can’t get any worse, it can only get better.
‘Never take anything for granted and never ever give up. Thank you to each and every one of you that has shown me love and a new way to live, I love you.’
Message of hope: The music star, 56, real name Tony Marnach, took to Instagram to share harrowing images, revealing that he was homeless and had no teeth due to his habit
Tony’s addiction continued for years while working as a top DJ where he would sometimes earn £100,000 per night.
The star discovered drugs when he was 18 and would convince himself that he couldn’t DJ unless he was high, sometimes going four or five nights straight without sleeping.
The drugs affected Tony’s perception of reality and at one point he said he became ‘so psychotic’ that he believed there were creatures inside his gums he wanted to remove.
Speaking to new! magazine in 2021, he said: ‘It got to the stage where I’d pull my teeth out of my mouth with my bare fingers or pry them out with a screwdriver. My whole face was numb from the drugs so it didn’t hurt.’
Inspiration: He added that he posts the images each year as a ‘message of hope’ to anyone struggling. (pictured at the VIP Winter Wonderland preview night in November)
His addiction hurt his relationship with ex-boyfriend James, who eventually helped him to quit when he found him passed out on the floor of a nightclub and said: ‘What’s happened to you?’
Tony had an epiphany and he soon quit drugs cold turkey, spending six months in rehab to beat the addiction.
While he is clean now, the DJ admitted it wasn’t an easy road to recovery as he replaced his drug addiction with a sex addiction.
He said: ‘It wasn’t a smooth path, I replaced drugs with a sex addition and was sleeping with up to eight blokes a day. But I treated that addiction too, although things didn’t work out with James.’
Tony told how he also helped his close friend Boy George get clean.
The DJ also helps at Resort 12, an LGBT specialist rehab clinic in Thailand, saying he thinks people in the community need special care.
While he has had moments of temptation since getting clean, Tony said his life is ‘too good’ to risk what he has, saying drink and drugs are no longer ‘an option’.
Tony said he knows if he had one night of drinking or taking drugs now, he would ‘go straight back to being that guy with no teeth’.
The musician, who now hosts The Recovery Podcast, said he now relishes life and knows that drugs are a doorway to death.
New life: The musician, who now hosts The Recovery Podcast, said he now relishes life and knows that drugs are a doorway to death (pictured on This Morning in June)