Erin Holland says cricketer husband Ben Cutting is ‘so desperate to be a dad’ as they use IVF


Erin Holland says cricketer husband Ben Cutting is ‘desperate to be a dad’ leaving her feeling ‘a real sense of inadequacy’ as she struggles to fall pregnant using IVF

Erin Holland has revealed how her IVF journey has left her feeling heartbroken for her husband, cricketer Ben Cutting, who longs to be a father. 

‘If it was something that I didn’t want, I wouldn’t be so upset. And when I look at Ben, he is so ready and so desperate to be a dad so I feel a real sense of inadequacy’ the 33-year-old told Stellar Magazine on Saturday. 

The television presenter went on to reveal that she has mourned over her failed attempts to fall pregnant so far. 

Erin Holland (pictured) has revealed how her IVF journey has left her feeling heartbroken for her husband, cricketer Ben Cutting, who longs to be a father

Erin Holland (pictured) has revealed how her IVF journey has left her feeling heartbroken for her husband, cricketer Ben Cutting, who longs to be a father

‘For someone who was never really very maternal at all, I was shocked by how much it affected me and I felt a real sense of loss of it being a natural process,’ she said.  

‘When someone looks me in the eyes and asks how I am going, I can find it really hard to say I am fine when I am not’. 

Erin earlier shared her heartbreak as she began her IVF journey in an Instagram post. 

'If it was something that I didn't want, I wouldn't be so upset. And when I look at Ben, he is so ready and so desperate to be a dad so I feel a real sense of inadequacy' the 33-year-old told Stellar Magazine on Saturday. Pictured with Ben

‘If it was something that I didn’t want, I wouldn’t be so upset. And when I look at Ben, he is so ready and so desperate to be a dad so I feel a real sense of inadequacy’ the 33-year-old told Stellar Magazine on Saturday. Pictured with Ben 

She wept in a selfie, which she shared alongside a long caption in which she explained she felt like a ‘failure’ and feared she was letting down Ben, 35. 

‘Last year, we found out the only real option to have a baby for me is IVF,’ she began. 

‘As someone who went in just wanting to freeze embryos until the time was ‘right’, I’ve grappled with the confusing feelings of the loss of any ‘normality’ of this process, feeling like the universe was telling me I’m not meant to be a mother, the guilt of letting Ben down, but am I even ready, feeling physically broken,’ she wrote.

Erin earlier shared her heartbreak as she began her IVF journey in an Instagram post

Erin earlier shared her heartbreak as she began her IVF journey in an Instagram post 

'Yesterday we found out that our first round of IVF resulted in nothing viable, and the sense of failure is overwhelming. The toll on the mind and body, the injections, the cost,' she said

‘Yesterday we found out that our first round of IVF resulted in nothing viable, and the sense of failure is overwhelming. The toll on the mind and body, the injections, the cost,’ she said

‘Yesterday we found out that our first round of IVF resulted in nothing viable, and the sense of failure is overwhelming. The toll on the mind and body, the injections, the cost,’ she went on. 

‘But I’m so grateful for modern medicine – it will take a village to create this baby, let alone raise it. The fact that IVF is even a possibility blows my mind.

‘I know it’s only the very beginning of this journey, and I thought about only sharing it when it was over, if ever.’ 

Wed; Erin and Ben married in Byron Bay on February 13, after rescheduling the wedding twice due to the coronavirus pandemic

 Wed; Erin and Ben married in Byron Bay on February 13, after rescheduling the wedding twice due to the coronavirus pandemic

They finally enjoyed a honeymoon together this month, over a year after their wedding. Pictured on honeymoon in the Maldives

They finally enjoyed a honeymoon together this month, over a year after their wedding. Pictured on honeymoon in the Maldives

Erin concluded by explaining that she was sharing her journey with the hope of reaching out to others going through the same thing.  

The couple married in Byron Bay on February 13, after rescheduling the wedding twice due to the coronavirus pandemic. 

They went on a late honeymoon this month, over a year after their wedding, enjoying a trip to the Maldives.

Read more: In this week's issue of Stellar Magazine

Read more: In this week’s issue of Stellar Magazine 

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