Jessie J reflects on miscarriage of ‘angel baby’ one year later as she admits ‘it still hurts’: ‘Grief is such a weird and personal journey’
- Jessie J is grieving the loss of her child one year after suffering a miscarriage
- She took to Instagram to reflect on the anniversary as she admitted that ‘it still hurts’
- The pop star described grief as a ‘weird and personal journey’
- Last November she was told her ‘baby no longer had a heartbeat’ and she shared the news online
- Jessie revealed in July that she’s trying again to conceive a child ‘on her own’
Jessie J is grieving the loss of her child one year after suffering a miscarriage.
The 34-year-old pop star took to Instagram to reflect on the anniversary as she admitted to her 12 million followers that ‘it still hurts.’
In the lengthy and solemn post she also said, ‘Grief is such a weird and personal journey.’
Grieving: Jessie J took to Instagram to reflect on the anniversary of her miscarriage one year later; pictured in NYC in April
Against a solid black background she began the post by stating, ‘A year ago today I was told my baby no longer had a heartbeat.’
She continued, ‘Although I can tell the story now without crying, have and still am discovering all the positives that experience gave me.’
The UK-born songstress then listed ‘strength, wisdom, empathy, and gratitude’ before adding, ‘It still hurts and all day I have just been thinking about all the women and men and families who have been through this numerous times and how incredibly strong they are.’
The singer became pregnant with her first child last year after trying for a baby ‘on her own.’
Thoughts: In the lengthy and solemn post she said, ‘Grief is such a weird and personal journey’
‘Time helps but it never truly fades,’ she noted about the trying experience.
‘Sending love and strength to anyone’s heart that has or is experiencing this right now,’ she wrote in the post.
At the end she spoke directly to her child as she said, ‘And to my little angel baby. I feel you everywhere. Especially today.’
Jessie soundtracked the Stories post with her song Four Letter Word, which was released in 2018.
Feeling good: Jessie J revealed she’s trying to conceive a child again and said she’s never felt more body confident, while speaking candidly at a London gig in July
This past July Jessie – full name Jessica Ellen Cornish – revealed she’s trying again to conceive a child and said her ‘body is changing shape’ as a result.
Speaking to the crowd at a London gig, the Price Tag hitmaker reflected on her ‘weight gain’ and told fans she has never felt more body confident.
She said: ‘I have gained weight and I’ve not been to the gym in ages, but honestly, I feel great. I’m not 17 anymore and I want to make a baby and I am trying to do that and my body is changing shape.’
The Sun report that the star opened up to the crowd about her future plans, admitting to her fans that she finally feels at ease in her life after years of being ‘lost in Hollywood.’
Gesturing to the glittering catsuit she was wearing, Jessie recalled ‘putting on a bikini and dry humping a horse in Price Tag… and being 34 in this outfit is different now.’
She also told the crowd: ‘I feel like people understand me more than they did ten years ago. It wasn’t easy to write songs about things like being in the club or boys. It isn’t who I am.
Body confidence: Speaking to the crowd at a London gig in July, the Price Tag singer reflected on her ‘changing shape’ and ‘weight gain’ recently; pictured backstage on July 14
‘Everybody wanted me to write those songs. I was in LA by myself and I remember looking in the mirror and being obsessed with being perfect. I felt like I had to be who people wanted to be accepted.’
‘This whole celebrity thing is so weird to me and how people are even more obsessed with how I look than I am.’
Offering candid insight into her ordeal, Jessie told The Diary Of A CEO Podcast in May that the aftermath of her miscarriage left her feeling overwhelmingly lonely and without ‘anyone to fall apart on.’
The chart-topper still proceeded to perform an intimate gig in Los Angeles only a day after receiving the heartbreaking news and sharing it online.
Family plans: ‘I’m not 17 anymore and I want to make a baby and I am trying to do that and my body is changing shape,’ Jessie told fans earlier this year; (pictured backstage
She recalled: ‘I posted it because I didn’t have anyone to break on… I didn’t have anyone to fall apart on, and that’s what I needed, that’s what I wanted.
‘I was by myself, I had no one advising me, my mum and my sister weren’t there to go, ‘no, don’t share this with the world, make it real for you first.’
Before losing the child a doctor had warned Jessie that the baby’s heartbeat was ‘very low,’ but it was too late by the time she’d sought a second professional opinion.
The BRIT School alum confessed her immediate thought was, ‘how am I going to get through tomorrow’s show?’, rather than processing what happened.
Heartbreak: Jessie became pregnant with her first child after trying for a baby ‘on her own’ but announced later that she had miscarried; pictured November 2021
‘The hardest part for me wasn’t doing the show, the show was actually kind of a weird trippy dream, and I was actually grateful that I wasn’t by myself, and loads of people that I loved turned up,’ she remembered.
She added: ‘It was when I got in the car after the show by myself, and I got home, and I opened my front door, I closed the door and I fell to my knees.
‘That was the worst moment of my whole experience — realizing that, other than my career, being a mother and having a child has been the biggest excitement of my life.
‘I felt like I’d been given everything I’d ever wanted and then someone had gone, ‘but you can’t have it.’
Better than ever: The confident star said last summer, ‘I have gained weight and I’ve not been to the gym in ages, but honestly, I feel great’
‘But it was still there, and I would sing to it every night, and when I got home and I lay there, I’ve never felt so lonely in my life.’
Months on from the tragedy, Jessie has admitted during the May interview that having a child on her own was no longer on her radar.
She explained: ‘It was the saddest thing, but at the same time, I knew that the reason it happened was because I wasn’t supposed to do it alone… I know that I’m supposed to find someone who wants this as much as I do.’
In April Jessie confirmed she was dating basketball player Chanan Safir Colman, when she was spotted kissing him on a lunch date in Los Angeles.
The happy couple first sparked romance rumors in March on Richard Branson’s Necker Island in the Caribbean as Chanan has joined Jessie for the work trip.
Jessie took to Instagram at the time and looked cosy with Danish-Israeli professional basketball player Chanan in a group beach picture.
Feeling understood : She also told the crowd that ‘I feel like people understand me more than they did ten years ago. It wasn’t easy to write songs about things like being in the club or boys. It isn’t who I am’; pictured in 2021