‘I wanted to drive my car off a bridge’: Kerry Katona admits financial woes left her suicidal as she struggled to feed and clothe her children
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Kerry Katona has revealed how she was once so broke she even considered suicide as she feared she would not be able to afford her children’s school uniforms or even feed them.
The former Atomic Kitten star, 41, who was declared bankrupt twice in 2008 and 2013, made the comments as she appeared on The Sun newspaper’s Dear Deidre podcast.
Earlier this year, the mum-of-five revealed how she’s made a fortune thanks to selling topless snaps of herself on OnlyFans, asserting: ‘It’s made me a millionaire again!’
Candid: Kerry Katona has revealed on the Sun’s Dear Deidre podcast how she was once so broke she considered suicide as she feared she would not be able to afford to feed her kids
Sitting down and chatting about her past struggles, the bubbly blonde said: ‘There’s been times when I’ve been wanting to drive my car off a bridge because I think, “How am I going to clothe these five kids?”
‘I understand the anxiety over money.’
Now, Kerry, who is mum to Molly, 20, Lilly-Sue 19, Heidi 15, Max 14, and eight-year-old Dylan-Jorge has said: ‘I’ve never met anybody like me before, who’s able to keep bouncing back and bouncing back and keep fighting.’
She added: ‘It used to come to September and I’d think, “Oh my God, I’ve got to buy five lots of uniforms, five lots of PE kits, five lots of shoes and PE shoes and school bags.” I’d think, “How am I literally going to do it?”‘
Proud mum: Kerry, who is mum to Molly, 20, Lilly-Sue 19, Heidi 15, Max 14, and eight-year-old Dylan-Jorge has said: ‘I’ve never met anybody like me before, who’s able to keep bouncing back and bouncing back and keep fighting’
The singer went on to explain how only two years ago, during the first lockdown in 2020, she had to sell her vintage jukebox to make ends meet.
She added: ‘I couldn’t afford to pay my rent. I thought, “Oh my God, how am I going to feed the kids?”‘
She now feels it was ‘the best thing that could have happened’ as the ‘stigma that comes with debt’ got rid of the hangers-on in her life who ‘just like little rats, disappeared.’
Loved-up: Last year, she and her personal trainer fiancé Ryan Mahoney moved into a £2 million Cheshire mansion, and she recently showed off her new Lamborghini on Instagram
Kerry has since turned her fortunes around, with her OnlyFans account giving her bank balance a boost.
Last year, she and her personal trainer fiancé Ryan Mahoney moved into a £2 million Cheshire mansion, and she recently showed off her new Lamborghini on Instagram.
She said: ‘I like to think, if I can do it, anybody can do it. It’s not always that easy, but there is always an end to a tunnel.’
Success: Kerry has since turned her fortunes around, with her OnlyFans account giving her bank balance a boost
The interview comes after the TV personality showed off her new vehicle in a recent video, in which she remarked how ‘proud’ she is for overcoming her past struggles.
In a clip shared to her Instagram earlier this month, the ex Atomic Kitten star filmed her bright green vehicle which was recently delivered, as well as a second car owned by herself and fiancé Ryan Mahony.
And Kerry was quick to assure her 800k followers that ‘this isn’t about bragging, this is about resilience!’ as she detailed how she’s bounced back from hardships including two bankruptcies, failed marriages and ‘almost dying’ amid her drugs battle.
Filming herself on her mobile, Kerry displayed her fancy car behind her and told her fans that the only reason she was doing this video is because she wanted to show people what they can get if they put their mind to something, noting that herself and Ryan have worked ‘b****y hard’ to purchase their cars.
Proud: The outing comes after Kerry showed off her brand new £200,000 Lamborghini in a recent video, in which she remarked how ‘proud’ she is for overcoming her past struggles
She said to the camera: ‘Always believe in yourself and work hard and if you do something like that you can end up getting something like this.’
Kerry, who has earned a tidy sum from her OnlyFans, was then quick to preempt the negative reaction she may receive, insisting that the post ‘wasn’t about bragging’ but to show how far she’s come.
She continued: ‘You’ve all watched my story and seen me at my lowest where I could’ve died and should’ve died. I took loads of drugs… I can’t believe I’m alive.
‘You can go on about me taking my clothes off but who gives a flying f**k look what’s on my drive. My kids are at private school.
Nice! In a clip shared to her Instagram earlier this week, the former Atomic Kitten star filmed her bright green vehicle which was recently delivered
‘I’ve got my own dating app, fitness app, clothing range, I’m a Creative Director at Thrillz, I do TV work and I’ve got my own column.’
Kerry also became a millionaire from adult subscription site OnlyFans, previously confessing to earning tens of thousands of pounds a month
Panning the camera over her her swanky vehicles, Kerry the mum-of-five added: ‘How lucky am I to have two cars like this. I’ve worked really, really hard and I’ve been bankrupt twice but I’ve grafted by a**e off.
Inspiring: Reiterating her powerful message in her caption, Kerry penned: ‘@ryanmahoney_7 don’t let anyone tell you CANT!! Believe in yourself and be your own hero.
‘I’ve worked hard for this. I’m not bragging, listen to what I’m saying.’
The I’m A Celebrity star then went on to reference the difficulties she’s overcome , mentioning her bankruptcies, failed romances, her troubles upbringing and her drug addiction, noting how her fans have seen her at her ‘lowest’.
She added of growing up with nothing in a refuge, saying: ‘We had no Christmas presents, no furniture, but then the refuge dropped off a bag of second-hand stuff and I was eternally grateful.
‘Now look what we’ve received’.
In an empowering message to her followers, Kerry said: ‘I keep fighting for another day and all I’m trying to do is encourage other people out there that if I can do it, anyone can do it! Believe in yourself and surround yourself with good people.’
She went on to share that she planned on making a ‘huge announcement’ the next day before instructing her husband-to-be to ‘start the bad boy up.’
Reiterating her powerful message in her caption, Kerry penned: ‘@ryanmahoney_7 don’t let anyone tell you CANT!! Believe in yourself and be your own hero.
Raking it in! Kerry became a millionaire from adult subscription site OnlyFans, previously confessing to earning tens of thousands of pounds a month
‘This isn’t about bragging!! This is about resilience, strength, hope, determination and hard work and never ever giving up! Don’t let other peoples opinions defy you as a person and I know there’s been a hell of a lot of opinions about me over the years!
‘Yes I’ve made many mistakes over the Years but you have to learn from them! In fact they were lessons! I know there’ll be a lot of hate which is so sad on their part… sending you all nothing but positive and happy vibes…’
Her post was met with a plethora of positive comments, with many praising her for keeping positive and defeating her past demons.
The new car will undoubtedly have top of the range security, after Kerry recently revealed her terror as her fiancé Ryan’s car was stolen from their driveway – weeks after her own car was stolen during a shopping trip.
Ordeal: The new car will undoubtedly have top of the range security, after Kerry recently revealed her terror as her fiancé Ryan’s car was stolen from their driveway
Admitting she’s even moved house following the ordeal, Kerry explained in her New! Magazazine column that she feels ‘more secure’ in the ‘manor’ house.
‘We’ve moved house, I’m still in the same area, but I was desperate to leave our old home after everything that happened with the burglaries.
‘It’s a lovely house and we’re already so happy here, the kids love it and it feels homely and cosy. It’s like a manor house – it’s huge! It’s really secure, too, which is important for me, but for some reason, I still don’t feel fully settled,’ she wrote.
And while the change of home has helped, the star is hoping to move further afield in the next year – recently admitting she’s hoping for a new start in Spain.
So sad: It came less than two weeks after Kerry said her car was stolen while she was out shopping, with the Christmas presents she’d bought going missing with the vehicle