Megan Fox‘s poetry book – Pretty Boys Are Poisonous – has unleashed a series of shock revelations following its release on Tuesday.
In the explosive tome, Fox, 37, opens about rape, past domestic abuse attacks by ‘very famous people’ and her relationship with current beau Machine Gun Kelly – notably writing in poems i and ii about how the pair suffered a miscarriage of a baby girl at 10 weeks.
In a disturbing poem titled rape, the star writes: ‘you can beg, you can cry, you can plead, you can reason, you can bribe, you can seduce, you can fight, you can surrender but you can never outrun the wolves.’
In the poem, Oxycodone and Tequila, Fox writes about being subjected to a brutal attack by an unnamed ex – leaving her covered in ‘bite marks and scratches.’
She wrote: ‘It always starts with a cinematic monologue/Your villain origin story.
‘your eyes go black and I know it’s too late to run/you lock the door, my stomach turns
‘today my sin was that I followed your friend to the dinner tale instead of waiting for you to lead me/ demon of wrath – what is my punishment
‘you hold me down and perch on me like a demented bird/ you spit on me and rub it across my face, smearing my make-up
‘”oh you’re so pretty, everybody loves you, your life is so f*****g easy” you say as you slip your fingers into my mouth and try to rip my face in two.
‘you dig your knees into my thighs to pin me down/ you choke me until there is a sickening crack that echoes through the bedroom, but it doesn’t wake you from your trance.
‘you hit me again and again, I recognize the familiar taste of blood on my tongue/ your hands are covered in my tears, mascara smudged along your knuckles
‘”it hurts doesn’t it?”‘/ i say nothing, you get angrier
‘”you want me to kill myself don’t you?”‘/ you’re tricking me so I’ll kill myself
‘delusional and possessed/i’m watching you like a movie now
‘the creature inside of you is dizzy with power/my tiny body must feel so fragile beneath you
‘hours pass and you are finally too tired to keep going/I am covered in scratches and bite marks
‘my eyes are red, my fingertips are white from trying to pry you off of me
‘my jaw aches, my soul aches more/you fall asleep on top of me so that I can’t call my family or the police
‘I don’t fall asleep, I lie awake and beg god to let me die.’
The star also writes about suffering abuse which left her with ‘delicate bruises’ across her jaw in poem, F****d-up fairytales.
She writes: ‘Prettiest boy, full of sadness and mischief/ your words are winsome and diaphanous
‘like the rain that momentarily collects on flower petals/my heart stretches eager to encapsulate your wounds
‘let me heal you/violent boy
‘full of rage and insecurities/your hands are so beautiful and strong, you use them to hurt me now
‘delicate bruises splayed across my jaw, I wonder what you are thinking while I cry and beg you to stop.’
In Don’t Worry Darling, the star writes: ‘mornings after you would hurt me / i would wake up and make your coffee / put on a sweatshirt so you wouldn’t have to look at the bruises you left.
‘If anything I’m lucky, imagine all the girls who don’t get hurt, for laughing at another boy’s jokes, how ineffectual and undesirable they must feel.’
In An Apparition in a Miniskirt, she discusses a controlling partner who made her ‘lose herself looking for your love.’
She writes: ‘I cut everyone out of my life that you didn’t like, my assistant, my friends my own sister/I stopped doing the things that I loved.
‘I lost myself looking for your love.’
The star also opened up about being physically and verbally abused by men in I’m Not Sure That God Agrees – writing she was called a ‘slut, c***’ and an ‘idiot; – as well as thrown to the ground and suffocated.
While Fox hasn’t explicitly mentioned MGK, 33, by name, many poems are clearly about the rocker.
In A 32 year old narcissist quantifies his crimes – the star writes: ‘You keep telling me it was an accident/that you would never hurt me on purpose/
‘that you’re just too young to have known better.
‘but what’s the difference between manslaughter and murder?/’m still dead either way.’
In A 6-foot-4 Damsel in Distress about MGK – who is that height – Megan writes: ‘You’re always waiting to be rescued, never willing to do the rescuing.’
Referencing their highly documented ‘twin flame connection’ and proposal in To Marry an Arsonist, she pens: ‘True love/twin flame/trusted friend/naive girl/so many secrets hiding/behind your scorched earth temper/
‘And when you asked me/I said yes/but I didn’t understand yet/why you always tasted like ashes.’
In The Devil Wears Dolce, she writes: ‘You are not real/you are only a projection of qualities that you think others will find interesting.
‘The morose poet/the reckless rock star/the orphaned lost boy.
‘But really you are just a duplicitous snake/and your venom pulses through my veins/slowly killing me.’
‘All while you smile for the paparazzi in your couture suit.’
Describing the heartbreaking miscarriage she suffered at ’10 weeks and one day’, she writes in i and ii: ‘maybe if you hadn’t… maybe if i had…’
‘I want to hold your hand / hear your laugh, but now / I have to say / goodbye,’ and later adds, ‘I close my eyes and imagine holding you tight against my chest as they rip you from my insides’.
Elsewhere in the book, she writes, ‘I will pay any price. Tell me please / what is the ransom / for her soul?’
The Transformers alum said she had ‘never been through anything like that before in my life’, as she opened up about the experience and about writing the book during an interview on Good Morning America on Tuesday.
‘It was very difficult for both of us,’ she explained. ‘And it sent us on a very wild journey together and separately, and together and apart, and together and apart, and together and apart, trying to navigate, “What does this mean? Why did this happen?'”
The couple have been in an on-again/off-again relationship since 2020, and the movie star said it was the singer — real name Colson Baker — that encouraged her to take pen to paper.
‘The person who actually told me I should write a poetry book is Colson,’ she shared. ‘It was something inside of me that had to come out or else it was going to make me sick. Some of it is definitely a metaphor. None of it is what I would say fictional. Those are all real life experiences that I had.’
Although neither Megan nor MGK have confirmed the pregnancy loss until now, the ‘Bloody Valentine’ hitmaker did appear to allude to it at the Billboard Music Awards in May 2022, dedicating his performance to Megan and adding, ‘This is for our unborn child.’
On GMA, Megan said the pregnancy loss was made even more difficult as she had already successfully welcomed three sons with her ex ex Brian Austin Green, 50: Noah Shannon, 11, Bodhi Ransom, 9, and Journey River, 7,
The Jennifer’s Body’s vet also wrote about themes of abuse and toxic relationships in her book of poetry, which she said occurred during a few high-profile romances.
‘It’s not an expose that I wrote or a memoir,’ she told GMA. ‘But throughout my life, I have been in at least one physically abusive relationship and several psychologically very abusive relationships.
‘I have only been publicly connected to a few people, but I shared energy, I guess you could say, [with] people who were horrific people. Also very famous. Very famous people. But no one knows that I was involved with those people.’