Olivia Bowen says she felt like a ‘failure’ for not being able to give birth to son Abel naturally

‘I keep thinking that there’s more than I could have done’: Olivia Bowen says she felt like a ‘failure’ for not being able to give birth to her son Abel naturally

She welcomed her son Abel five months again.

And now Olivia Bowen has opened up on her birthing experience, admitting she felt like a ‘failure’ by not having a natural birth.

In a new interview, the Love Island star, 28, candidly spoke about the distressing birth and how she had had to make quick decisions to save her child’s life.

'Failure': Olivia Bowen has opened up on her birthing experience, admitting she felt like a 'failure' by not having a natural birth

‘Failure’: Olivia Bowen has opened up on her birthing experience, admitting she felt like a ‘failure’ by not having a natural birth

Olivia revealed she had been determined to have a totally natural birth and even turned to hypnobirthing – a natural form of pain management which focuses on breathing techniques and a positive mentality.

However, after Abel’s heart rate dropped and her water had not yet broken, she was forced to be induced and have an epidural, while her son was pulled out with forceps.

Speaking to Grazia, Olivia explained: ‘I wanted a natural birth so badly and I’m not even sure why. I think I wanted to be like this raw, natural woman that could breathe through her contractions and be fine. I wanted to be like those strong women that I’d seen depicted everywhere.’

She added: ‘I feel like my birthing experience kind of got taken away from me. I always believed I’d be that person that thought, “It doesn’t matter how they get here as long as they get here happy and healthy”, but I’ve realised that it does matter to me. At times, I have felt disappointed in myself that I wasn’t able to cope with the pain. I keep thinking that there’s more than I could have done. There’s this idea that women are built to give birth and it makes me feel like a failure that I couldn’t do it naturally.’

She also spoke about how she lost ‘nearly a litre of blood’ during the traumatic birth and acknowledged how hard the experience had been on her husband Alex.

Opening up: In a new interview, the Love Island star, 28, candidly spoke about the distressing birth and how she had had to make quick decisions to save her child's life

Opening up: In a new interview, the Love Island star, 28, candidly spoke about the distressing birth and how she had had to make quick decisions to save her child’s life

She said: ‘As much as the attention should be on the woman, the partner needs to be supported afterwards as well because they do go through a lot. Alex is such a sensitive soul, and he was essentially left in the dark by a lot of the decisions that I had to make for Abel and I know that it was really scary for him.’

Olivia says the experience had not put her off having more children however, saying that her and Alex want two kids.

But the reality star added that they’re planning to wait until she turns 30 and they’ve sought out therapy to prepare for the second.

Olivia added that she was speaking about Abel’s birth for the first time to make sure women are prepared for all eventualities. 

Traumatic: However, after Abel's heart rate dropped and her water had not yet broken, she was forced to be induced and have an epidural, while her son was pulled out with forceps

Traumatic: However, after Abel’s heart rate dropped and her water had not yet broken, she was forced to be induced and have an epidural, while her son was pulled out with forceps

Earlier this month, Olivia said she feels like an ‘alien’ in her own body after giving birth to her first child.

The star spoke to MailOnline about how she has been dealing with postpartum body confidence and how Alex, 31, has been a ‘punching bag’ during emotional moments.

Olivia’s comments come after new mother Chloe Madeley admitted she can’t imagine ever ‘feeling sexy again’, and while she currently doesn’t feel herself in her body, Olivia insisted she will feel sexy again in the future.

Olivia said that she has found it hard getting to grips with her new body, admitting that she is a ‘very different Olivia’ to the one she once was before giving birth.

Trauma: She also spoke about how she lost 'nearly a litre of blood' during the traumatic birth and acknowledged how hard the experience had been on her husband Alex

Trauma: She also spoke about how she lost ‘nearly a litre of blood’ during the traumatic birth and acknowledged how hard the experience had been on her husband Alex

Discussing Chloe’s experience, she said: ‘More luck to her if she’s come out with a body banging like that and you want to show it off. Go for it, I think it’s just a difficult thing because some women find it so hard afterwards.’

‘For me, as well I feel very alien in my body, I feel very different. At the same time, I know I will feel sexy again, 100 per cent.

‘Because I know that feeling sexy and feeling confident comes from within, it doesn’t come from what you look like or what body shape you have.

‘It’s all relative to the person that has the emotions.. On her behalf she must not be able to feel like herself and I can completely sympathise with that.

‘When I had Abel I didn’t feel like myself, I felt like a different version of myself and I think you are in a bit of a daze when you have a baby so you don’t really know how to feel.

‘She’s only had the baby a few weeks ago, her hormones are still raging, you can’t really attack a woman for how she’s feeling, it doesn’t matter if it’s not how you feel, we are all going to feel differently towards it.’

Future: Olivia says the experience had not put her off having more children however, saying that her and Alex want two kids

Future: Olivia says the experience had not put her off having more children however, saying that her and Alex want two kids

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