Safiyya Vorajee says she’d ‘love’ another child to continue her late daughter Azaylia’s ‘legacy’

EXCLUSIVE: ‘I’d love to have another child – but they won’t replace Azaylia’: Safiyya Vorajee says she’d like more children to continue her daughter’s ‘legacy’ as she details visiting a medium while ‘desperate for answers’

  • Azaylia lost her battle with acute myeloid leukaemia in April 2021, when she was just eight months old 
  • She was diagnosed with the rare disease when she was two months old and her parents chronicled her battle on social media, gaining worldwide recognition
  • For help and support caring for children with life-limiting and life-threatening conditions, please contact Together for Short Lives on 0808 8088 100 or visit www.togetherforshortlives.org.uk 
  • If you have been affected by the death of a baby please call Sands on 0808 164 3332 or email [email protected] 

Safiyya Vorajee has revealed that she would love to one day welcome another child to continue her late daughter Azaylia’s ‘legacy’ following her death.

The mum, 34, and former partner Ashley Cain lost their daughter on April 24, 2021, when she was just eight months old following a courageous battle with acute myeloid leukaemia.

And in an exclusive interview with MailOnline, Safiyya told how she visited a medium in a desperate search for ‘answers’ following her loss, before coming to the realisation that she could see another baby in her future. 

My girl: Safiyya Vorajee has revealed that she would love to one day welcome another child to continue her late daughter Azaylia's 'legacy' following her death

My girl: Safiyya Vorajee has revealed that she would love to one day welcome another child to continue her late daughter Azaylia’s ‘legacy’ following her death

Speaking to the launch of her second collection with jewellery brand Abbott Lyon in tribute to her daughter, the mum told how she’d finally become open to the idea of other children after previously being staunchly against it – but noted that Azaylia could not be ‘replaced’.

Safiyya – who is no longer with Azaylia’s father Ashely – explained: ‘At the start it was completely out of the question, I didn’t want another child and that’s because I didn’t want to feel like I was replacing Azaylia because she would never be replaced.

‘I then went to see a medium. I just needed answers from somewhere or something, I was just desperate, in the pit of my darkest moment. 

‘The medium asked me if I could see another child, and I said “oh no no” straight away. And she said “I want you to know that you will never replace Azaylia, this will be an addition to Azaylia and Azaylia would love that”.’

New campaign: Safiyya was speaking to the launch of her second collection with jewellery brand Abbott Lyon in tribute to her daughter

New campaign: Safiyya was speaking to the launch of her second collection with jewellery brand Abbott Lyon in tribute to her daughter

Let's go champ: The mum, 34, and former partner Ashley Cain lost their daughter on April 24, 2021, when she was just eight months old following a battle with acute myeloid leukaemia

Let’s go champ: The mum, 34, and former partner Ashley Cain lost their daughter on April 24, 2021, when she was just eight months old following a battle with acute myeloid leukaemia

Safiyya continued: ‘When I heard that, it wasn’t so much that always believed mediums and what my readings are, it was more like what she said to me, that Azaylia will never be replaced, that she’s an addition – an addition to you. So if you had another child, they’d be another addition. 

‘The fact that she said that to me, it gave me the hope to think that I would love to have another brother or sister for Azaylia. And for myself, obviously to continue with their big sister’s legacy and to be proud of being a part of something so magical to help other child and families. That would be absolutely beautiful. 

‘We can’t always navigate our children to what we would like them to do. But for me, I would love to have another child, love to. The beauty that Azaylia has showed me to be a mother, it filled me with such magical moments. I’ve seen the beauty of being a mother.’

Future: Safiyya told how she visited a medium in a desperate search for ‘answers’ following her loss, before coming to the realisation that she could see another baby in her future (pictured in her Abbott’s Lyon pendant)

In the 17 months since Azaylia’s death, Safiyya and Ashley have continued to keep their daughter’s name alive as well as raising awareness of children’s cancer and funds for their Azaylia Foundation.

However, despite putting on a brave face, Safiyya told how ‘difficult’ she finds it carrying her grief on a daily basis and admitted to telling people she’s OK just to give them ‘comfort’ that she’s ‘coping’. 

She said: ‘Carrying grief with you every single day is heavy, it feels like chains are weighted to you. Even today, I found it difficult. I’ve had to do work, I’ve cried, I’ve gone in the shower, I’ve really pulled myself together today. I’ve had content I’ve had to film from brands that I work with.

Our girl: Safiyya - who is no longer with Azaylia's father Ashely - explained: 'At the start it was completely out of the question, I didn't want another child and that's because I didn't want to feel like I was replacing Azaylia because she would never be replaced

Our girl: Safiyya – who is no longer with Azaylia’s father Ashely – explained: ‘At the start it was completely out of the question, I didn’t want another child and that’s because I didn’t want to feel like I was replacing Azaylia because she would never be replaced

‘Through those times, I’m constantly having to wear this armour every single day, coping and getting through the day. And when I rest my head on my pillow at the end of the night, I just feel proud that I’ve got through that one day.’

The author continued to say that while she’s sometimes triggered by seeing other babies, she knows that the ‘purpose’ that her daughter has given her is ‘greater’ than her pain.

She went on: ‘I’ve probably taken so many kicks and punches and felt winded through those days of triggers – there’s huge triggers through the day. 

‘It could be someone doing something so innocently like pushing a pram, and my heads starts wondering, just wishing that Azaylia was still here. 

‘It’s so painful. But, I’ve said before, that there’s days when I don’t want to be here, it’s too hard. But the purpose that our daughter has given me is higher and greater, I know she’s looking down.’

Wish: 'I would love to have another brother or sister for Azaylia. And for myself, obviously to continue with their big sister's legacy and to be proud of being a part of something so magical to help other child and families. That would be absolutely beautiful'

Wish: ‘I would love to have another brother or sister for Azaylia. And for myself, obviously to continue with their big sister’s legacy and to be proud of being a part of something so magical to help other child and families. That would be absolutely beautiful’

Safiyya added the experience of losing her daughter was the ‘biggest fear of her life’, but because of this, she can now face anything.

She shared: ‘ There’s so many things I wouldn’t face previously. I face anxiety every single day and that’s the biggest battle that people can’t actually see, because so many people experience anxiety and are battling something that’s silent. 

‘I battle hugely against feelings, emotions and trauma and I still get up and get through it.’

She went on to state Ashley’s current stint on Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins as an example as she said that while she would have previously ruled something like that out, she now feels she could indeed rise to the challenge.

She added: ‘When you face the biggest fear of your life and go through the scariest time, anything now just becomes tiny. I’ve been faced with the biggest fear of my life, nothing comes close to that.’

Tragic loss: 'Carrying grief with you every single day is heavy, it feels like chains are weighted to you. Even today, I found it difficult'

Tragic loss: ‘Carrying grief with you every single day is heavy, it feels like chains are weighted to you. Even today, I found it difficult’

Strength: 'When you face the biggest fear of your life and go through the scariest time, anything now just becomes tiny. I've been faced with the biggest fear of my life, nothing comes close to that'

Strength: ‘When you face the biggest fear of your life and go through the scariest time, anything now just becomes tiny. I’ve been faced with the biggest fear of my life, nothing comes close to that’

For September’s Childhood Cancer Awareness Month, Safiyya has once again partnered with jewellery brand Abbott Lyon to create a collection in tribute to her daughter and to raise funds for the Azaylia Foundation – which helps children with serious illnesses to access treatment not readily available on the NHS

Sharing her pride in the creation of a special Lion pendant and bracelet in memory of her little fighter, she said: ‘I’m so passionate in making sure that I’m involved with everything, I worked with the in-house design team. 

‘From the delicacy of the little lion to our ‘let’s go champ’ written at the back of the pendant. I want people to wear it with pride, I want people to know that 100% of the proceeds will be donated. 

Tribute: The star has created a collection in tribute to her daughter and to raise funds for the Azaylia Foundation

Tribute: The star has created a collection in tribute to her daughter and to raise funds for the Azaylia Foundation

Lovely: For September's Childhood Cancer Awareness Month, Safiyya has once again partnered with jewellery brand Abbott Lyon

Lovely: For September’s Childhood Cancer Awareness Month, Safiyya has once again partnered with jewellery brand Abbott Lyon

‘It’s just a beautiful way to know that you’re supporting all the beautiful children battling cancer’.

On continuing to work and raise awareness of childhood cancer, Safiyya concluded: ‘I actually feel proud. I feel proud of my daughter, I feel proud of the purpose and the legacy that she’s left behind for me to continue as he mother. 

‘To be able to be a voice to the voiceless and really know that community that are suffering, to know that there’s somebody out here that has a platform that’s using it in the most purest way possible to scream from the rooftop for them. 

‘I’m just proud that there’s so many people who find inspiration from me and my daughter and following our journey. 

‘It makes them feel not alone. The pendant is a symbol you can wear to feel that you’re not alone and that we’re together in this.’ 

Campaigner: The Azaylia Foundation helps children with serious illnesses to access treatment not readily available on the NHS

Campaigner: The Azaylia Foundation helps children with serious illnesses to access treatment not readily available on the NHS 

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