‘I will never be a man, ever’: Transgender man tells author MATT WALSH that America is selling our ‘most vulnerable kids’ a medical ‘illusion’ when we tell them they can change their gender
This is an adaptation of Matt Walsh’s book, ‘What Is a Woman?: One Man’s Journey to Answer the Question of a Generation,’ which is being released June 14 from Daily Wire Books
As I sat across from Scott Newgent in a beautiful room in New York with the warm sun showering in, I thought she looked almost like a middle-aged man: stubbled cheeks, thinning hair, a portly body shape.
I started off with the basics. ‘What led up to your decision to transition?’ I asked.
She began with a sigh. ‘Well, it’s a question I get a lot.’
She told me about how she is a lesbian and was deeply in love with a conservative Catholic girl.
The girl knew she wasn’t a lesbian and told Newgent she acted like a man in a woman’s body.
‘So I thought about it for a long time,’ Newgent said. ‘And it came to me that if I replaced my life, if I replaced my chromosomes from female to male, my life would have been completely different. I would have been the ultimate male.’
Her psychologist and people around her continued to seed the idea that she really was born in the wrong body.
All of a sudden, her experiences as a lesbian and being uncomfortable started to fit together.
At forty-two, she took the plunge. She decided to medically transition.
As I sat across from Scott Newgent (left) in a beautiful room in New York with the warm sun showering in, I thought she looked almost like a middle-aged man: stubbled cheeks, thinning hair, a portly body shape.
At forty-two, Newgent (left) took the plunge. She decided to medically transition. I asked Newgent what that change meant for her. The pain flooded out. (Right) Author, Matt Walsh
I presumed now she considered herself a man. I wanted to ask her about that experience. But then she said something that surprised me.
‘I’m a biological woman that medically transitioned to appear like a male through synthetic hormones and surgery,’ she declared.
‘I will never be a man, ever… Medical transition is an illusion; you create an illusion of the opposite sex—there is no such thing as changing genders. You can’t,’ Newgent continued.
I was getting a little nervous.
If I had said anything like that to the pro-trans crowd, they would turn on me in an instant.
‘Isn’t this transphobia now against yourself, maybe?’ I asked tentatively.
‘No, it’s reality. It’s reality,’ she said. ‘The reality is, is that if you medically transition, you create an illusion of the opposite sex for comfort. Why is that transphobic?’
Newgent described to me how the entire process of medical transitioning sucks people in a long downward spiral in search of happiness they were promised and how it has also come to impact our children.
‘We’re taking our most vulnerable kids in the entire world, and we’re telling them that there’s a fix for it… Because here’s what happens with medical transitioning,’ she told me, drawing from her experience.
‘You start with the idea that “I was born in the wrong body. Thank God, life is going to get better now. Right?” So we start hormones, and then six months later after hormones, we go, “Well that didn’t help anything.”’
But these people have already gone so far. They can’t turn back now. The only option they feel they have is to continue.
Everyone in authority is telling them if they aren’t happy yet, it’s because they haven’t been affirmed enough.
Newgent went on: ‘”But I still need top surgery.” So you get top surgery and then you go, “OK, well, I still have that inner thing, you know.”‘
‘I still need bottom surgery and I need to change my pronouns and I need to do this, and society’s being transphobic because they’re misgendering me, and there’s always some kind of connection, right? Well, at some point, you kind of got to look left and right and go, “Well, that didn’t fix a thing!'”
I was getting a little nervous. If I had said anything like that to the pro-trans crowd, they would turn on me in an instant. (Right) ‘What Is a Woman?: One Man’s Journey to Answer the Question of a Generation’ from Daily Wire Books
Newgent’s story arc is matched by the data, as nearly 100 percent of children who begin puberty blockers will proceed to cross-sex hormones and surgeries.
I asked Newgent what that change meant for her.
The pain flooded out.
‘I’ve had seven surgeries. I’ve had one stress heart attack. I’ve had a helicopter life ride with a pulmonary embolism. I’ve had seventeen rounds of antibiotics. I’ve had a month of IV antibiotics.’
‘I had a surgeon who was banned from conducting surgery in San Francisco, who moved to Texas, where they have a tort reform act where basically suing somebody with an experimental procedure is kind of slim to none, who used the wrong skin to create my urethra.’
‘I had six inches of hair on the inside of my urethra for seventeen months. I didn’t sleep for seventeen months. I lost my job, my house, my car, my wife, everything I’ve ever worked for. And nobody knew what was wrong with me.’
I didn’t know where to start. She put her body through hell.
How could this have happened?
‘Medical transition is experimental,’ she told me.
It’s not regulated. It has been refined. But, nonetheless, a lot can go wrong. She tried to help me understand the depth of her agonizing, physical pain.
‘[The doctor] used the wrong side of the skin to create my urethra,’ which is the tube that carries urine from the bladder out of the penis in a male.
‘Think about having an ingrown hair on your face. Now, think of that with urine passing it on the inside of your body—moving and changing with puss, getting infected.’
Every movement, every twitch, every time she had to go to the bathroom was drenched in pain.
‘I was so sick. I’m still sick,’ she added.
But the physical pain was only part of the equation. She had spent so much of her money getting the surgery in the first place that she needed help fixing what the surgery had done.
‘I got a job for three months—I don’t know how—because I had to get insurance, because my mind wouldn’t think. Get a sepsis infection and [imagine] how you could think. I moved across the country to figure out how to get somebody to help me.’
I wondered why the doctor who caused the problem couldn’t fix the problem.
That’s when she told me, ‘Nobody would help me, including the doctor that did this to me, because I lost my insurance. I worked for three months to get insurance until that insurance kicked in.’
Altogether, her medical expenses to both her and her insurance exceeded $900,000.
That wasn’t the only problem. Because her issues were so particular, she couldn’t go to any old doctor.
Few are familiar with the intricacies of sex change surgery.
‘I had to go outside of the state that I was living in because nobody in the state knew what they were doing,’ she told me. ‘I had, and still have, and will always have a recurring infection for the rest of my life. At some point, antibiotics are not going to work anymore.’
I looked deeply at Newgent, realizing I was talking with a woman who lived with a death sentence.
‘I get infections every three to four months,’ she went on. ‘I’m probably not going to live very long.’
Knowing what we know now, I asked Newgent why she couldn’t file a lawsuit against the doctor who not only completely botched her surgery, but also acted against such a preponderance of evidence in the scientific literature.
‘Every single [attorney] turned me down,’ she told me.
‘Do you know why? Well, about the eighth one. I had an absolute breakdown on the phone with an attorney. I mean, I went nuts; somebody probably should have called the mental hospital. I was throwing—I broke a TV—I was throwing shit all around my apartment and I started to bawl.’
She had been turned down so many times before, and she just wanted to know why. The case seemed like a slam-dunk.
‘Just will you please tell me why you’re not taking my case?’ Newgent asked the attorney.
‘And she told me that, “Well, we looked at WPATH [World Professional Association for Transgender Health] and there’s no baseline to care. So to take your case, we have to create a baseline for care. That’s millions of dollars. That little paper that you signed, you said that it’s experimental.”‘
In medicine, a baseline of care establishes common, minimal practices and conduct that assure patients are well taken care of and aren’t harmed by negligence or abuse.
When doctors fail to follow that baseline of care, they open themselves up to liability.
However, because sex change surgeries are deemed experimental, baselines of care have never been established—and surgeons are rarely held accountable.
‘What would be involved in creating a baseline of care?’ I asked Newgent.
‘It would take a lot of case studies,’ she told me—the type of case studies that don’t exist for transitioning therapies and surgeries. ‘Companies like Lupron would actually have to run studies on hormone blockers to try to get it FDA-approved.’
But if they submitted drugs like Lupron for approval, the entire world would learn the truth, not only about the terrible side effects of Lupron as it is currently used off-label for gender affirming therapy but also that transgender people who receive hormone therapy and who medically transition aren’t actually happier than those who don’t.
Lupron has been around for decades, as have sex change surgery and hormone therapy and transgenderism.
The FDA hasn’t approved drugs like Lupron for gender transitioning, and doctors haven’t established baselines of care for sex change surgeries, not because we haven’t had enough time, but because there hasn’t been the will.
‘Lupron refuses to do studies,’ Newgent told me, ‘because when they do studies, there’s no doctor in the world that’s going to sign up and go, “Yep, I’m going to sign that, yep.”‘
In Newgent’s words, ‘We’re taking kids that have suicidal ideation that already want to kill themselves. We’re telling them there’s something wrong with them. We’re putting them in an experimental procedure… And we’re going to tell them they’re going to be OK.’
‘No! They call me. That’s why I don’t sleep at night. It’s why I’m on the phone constantly trying to find therapists for these people. This is why I look at media people and say, ‘shame on you.’ That’s the truth.’
Scott Newgent approved of the use of pronouns in this article